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Wednesday, September 3rd, 2008
12:37 am	Been a while Well, it's been a while since I posted here. Anyone who is reading this, I'm doing well doing tech support in Burlington. Almost paid off my car and saving to do some travelling and maybe move out at some point. I'm really tired as I've been burning the candle at both ends recently so Imma head to bed now. Just finished wringing a character concept from my muse so that's good. I can sometimes be found on sorcery.net on IRC in the channel #lookshyooc. My nick is usually Laethyl. Current Mood: creative Current Music: Rolling Stones - Sympathy for the Devil (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 27th, 2005
7:29 pm	Stuff Coding Perl, doing stuff. More to come. Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Johnny Cash - A Boy named Sue (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
1:17 am	Da Grind Well, same old same old. My chair has gotten progressively worse oh well. Guess I'll have to deal with it for the time being. Anyways, I'm on the warpath for a new job now. Got no excuses and I need to get out there and get results. My current cash situation is a problem and the Barn is getting worse and worse by the minute. Got a resume, just need to make it look a little better and I'm in business. Speaking of things getting worse. Parents. I swear, I get home from work, go on the comp to check email and take it easy. Right away, every night, my mom. MARK! How was your day? You should do this, you should do that, why aren't you doing this, can you do this, I want you to do that, I think yada yada yada. Now I don't want to seem unreasonable, my mom is a saint and I am very grateful to her for everything she has done for me. However, every night it's the same thing. You should go to the gym, or go for a walk, you should help around the house more. So, I go to the gym "Oh you shouldn't push yourself or you don't need to go every day." or "Oh, you shouldn't go for a walk this late at night, you are crazy." or "NO, you don't need to do groceries or mow the law if dad doesn't ask or etc etc." It's so frustrating! Dad isn't much better, but him and me have never really seen eye to eye. There is no pleasing that man, and I know he only wants what is best and thinks he has the perfect answers for anything and the perfect methods to do anything. However, he doesn't seem to get that his way isn't always right and yelling at me and doing it for me does nothing to help. Example: I'll be mowing the lawn, on my own. He will come home and be like. "Oh, you are mowing the lawn" (My must be perfect, definition of the color green lawn) and I'll do something, like say, oh lift the lawnmower over a ledge to get to another part of the lawn. "You know if you just tilted it, you wouldn't have to waste that much effort." something totally meaningless that frankly no one should give two shits about. Of course saying that is only going to start a pointless argument that I cannot win, since I MUST be wrong. So I'll tilt the lawnmower and of course it doesn't fit or I scrap a wheel or something to that effect and it's of course my fault. "You know, don't do it that way! The way I told you." etc etc. Long story short, I stopped mowing the lawn because no matter what I do, it is never good enough for him so why bother. Logically of course, he must now complain that I don't mow the lawn anymore. Mom says, he should ask me to do it (which I would if he did ask me) but instead he says "I shouldn't have to ask." Well, considering just about everytime I try to do something on my own for the good of the house I either get yelled at or someone demands for me to stop doing it any way but perfectly, or get what I was doing taken over. Now if it were something like me trying to repair a gas furnace, I would understand, espcially since I have no expertise in repairing gas furnaces. However, when I am doing something as small as cooking, I just can't deal with anymore. Thus I need to get a real job and blow this popsicle stand. I also need to stop thinking that I will never amount to anything and that I am worthless, espcially since I was so psyched when I started this journal post. I guess the best way to do that, is to get pissed here goes! I just thought I'd mention, did you ever get the feeling someone is just lashing out at anything and everything you say, just so they can feel like they are superior. I'm getting pretty f$*%ing sick and tired of that bull$)*#! Not just from the fam, but from other people. I'm also getting f$*%ing sick and tired of having to deal with people who either are completly wrong, or are only partially right on a subject and claiming it is truth. This really ticks me off when they operate on incomplete information or asinine interpretation. I can think of more then one organization who do that, not to mention individuals too. Yeah you are entitled to your opinion, that's the great thing about living in a free country. However, your OPINIONS do not nessicarily = TRUTH. People have been wrong before, and believe me pal, don't think for a second that you are always right, because you ARE NOT! Lastly, don't f$*%ing be fanatical in opinion about stupidly small and irrelevant things! Infact, don't be a f$*%ing fanatic about any opinion, even if your opinion is backed by facts! Contrary to popular belief, what you think is a fact can change. You need only look at the f$*%ing fact that the world isn't f$*%ing flat to see that! Fanaticism only breeds schism and pisses people off. Instead, try accepting another angle and take on the facts. BTW, I'm not just talking religious fanaticism. I'm talking about ANY and ALL fanatics about anything. Politics, Science, Literature, Culture, Lawnmowing, Gamming of all kinds, Everything. If anything look at it this way. Raising taxes to pay for trained doctors is a good thing. So is lowering taxes so people can have more money to spend. Neither is wholly right or wholly wrong. It's all a matter of perspective. That all being said, I think it's time I took it easy and went to bed. After all, that all is just my opinon, not the complete truth Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Sound of Silence - Simon & Garfunkle (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
12:20 pm	Ahhh Ahh, that is much better. Not much to say since my last entry. I went on vacation in the dominican and it was great. The food at some of the restauraunts sucked, but that's ok. BTW, the poverty down there is really bad. People are living in little shacks made of aluminum sideing that are about as big as most people's sheds. Well, all the money I spent down there I hope helps. Anyways, this weekend went to a big party at a buddy's house. He lives out in the boonies in Ancaster. Man that house is sweet. He had some live bands, lots of drinking, a fire and poker. Not much more I could ask for. Kinda sucked crashing in the back of my car though, that really messed my back up, but I think it's finally straightened itself out. Speaking of straightening out, I need to fix my chair sometime soon. Anyways, I'm out. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Union Underground - South Texas Deathride (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 30th, 2005
9:30 pm	VACATION! Well, around this time tomorrow I will be sleeping in a hotel in the Dominican Republic. It feels good to go on a real one week vacation after easily 3 years without one. That and I finally get away from the momz who has been driving me nuts over the most trivial of details. Tonight's goal, to use up all my rested experience in World of Warcraft so it can accumulate over the week I'm gone. Just like a true addict, although I doubt a true adict would ever have rest experience :D. I also got to make a tape to take with me, but that's no sweat. See you guys in a week from now! Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Whatever - Our Lady Peace (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 2nd, 2005
2:32 pm	Sup WoW yup, addicted. More to come after I vaccum Current Mood: lazy Current Music: The Washing Machine, that's right! (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 13th, 2005
11:29 pm	Worst, Movie, Ever I think I have finally discovered the worst movie ever in the history of mankind. Napolean Dynamite. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0374900/ I want my hour and a half back from the mind wrenching pain this movie has caused me. I've seen Modern Vampires, I've seen Death Warrant, I've seen Arachnaphobia. This movie is a genuine brown log that fell into the toilet seat. The plot, is non exsistent. The Characters, are terrible. The Acting, is terrible. This movie has literaly reduced my capacity for intelligent thought. I honestly think banging myself over the head with a cookie tray, or similar metallic object for an hour and a half would be more enjoyable. To anyone who has seen this movie and for any reason thought it to be funny. THIS IS THE SIGN THAT YOU NEED TO SEEK PSYCHOLOGICAL HELP!! YOU SUFFER FROM DEMENTIA, SCHIZOPHRENIA OR ANOTHER DELUSIONAL DISORDER!! Never, EVER I have seen such a peice of garbage made into a movie. You cannot even laugh at how bad the movie is, because it's so terrible. I would say watching this movie is like being a deer in headlights, but that is too kind, for the sheer horror and stupidity of this movie makes you yearn to shut it off with a 12 gauge. Perhaps a better metaphor for watching this movie is being a deer in headlights who was run down by an 18 Wheeler but survived, to mutate into a hideous six legged, diamond hoofed monster bent on killing the humans who wronged it's once innocent life in such an awful way. Now that I think about it, if someone made a movie about that deer, it would still be better this...this evidence that mankind will wipe itself from the face of the galaxy. Thus, I must offer this movie the prestigous award that only the Superman videogame has been awarded. This movie is SHIT http://i.somethingawful.com/inserts/newgraphics/award-shit.jpg PS: My Brain hurts so freakin' much that my choice of music is better then thinking about that movie. That's right, you didn't misread the artist. PSS: I don't know if there is enough alchohol in the world to make me forget this. Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Leonard Nimoy - Ballad of Bilbo Baggins (1 Comment |Comment on this)
9:45 am	Uh Oh If you've been reading my journal, you've probably heard me complaining about not getting up early. Well this is earlier then most of the times. Sadly now that I am up, I don't know what to do with myself, except go back to bed. Hmm... this dilema must be overcome. Maybe I'll go shopping and be a slave to capitalism and consummerism. Yes...I think that is what I will do. Current Mood: awake Current Music: This early? Yeah Right... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
12:46 am	Grind Been working out with my buddies Bix, Keannu, and *****. Hoping to stick to the program this time. With four of us, I think we can do it! Anyways work was cool today until the blind lady came into our store. Dear lord, she is the most miserable, angry, bitchy, arrogant human being I have ever had to deal with. I mean, I can feel sorry for you being blind, but that's not an excuse to flip out at me because we don't sell microwave meals in bags anymore. I think a glass of water would do me some good right about now. Upward swing, cheer me on peeps! Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: The Verve - Lucky Man (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 8th, 2005
9:17 pm	What the fuck Seriously man, what the fuck... Gotta break free, gotta get out, gotta find the drive, gotta walk into the sunset, gotta do it, just gotta..... just gotta.. Current Mood: depressed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 20th, 2004
12:16 am	FINALLY! It's about f'in time I got drunk this month. Man, Novemeber is such a $#%@ month. I mean nothing happens besides American Thanksgiving, and who cares about that. Props to my buddies Keannu, Ruckus and the ex-lord of the dance. You know who you are. The Hammer is now though, the true lord of the dance, save Dennis Leary. Man, one more shot of Wild Turkey, adn that's it man. {Ric Flair style} WOOOOOO! Current Mood: drunk Current Music: The Who - Behind Blue Eyes (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 18th, 2004
11:37 pm	Zoog Not much really to say. I have to wake up in about 6 hours to go to work. Today was a bit shitty at work. Some lady wanted a 7 cent refund because the oranges were priced incorrectly. Anyways, I'm off to bed. Current Mood: predatory Current Music: Korn - Y'all Want a Single (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
12:08 am	Aww...crap Last night, I got a look at World of Warcraft...and now I want it. Damnit, now I must succumb to pay to play because the game looks so ubber sweet. So now I'm fanatically hoping I can get in on the open beta. I hope I can, but I suspect that millions of other people have the same idea. Oh Well Anyways, not really much more to say. My computer is lagging like crazy due to beta downloading, which I might not even get the chance to play. Espcially since I'm heading to bed soon, and blizzard will probably get their site up and running sometime around 3-5. Cross my fingers anyways. Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Tragiacally Hip - Looking for a place to happen (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004
1:10 am	Ohio It's 1:14, and it's looking like Ohio isn't going to break for the democrats so it's probably going to be Bush. Then my mom reminds me, that the americans are getting the president that they picked and that they deserve. That's sorta makes me feel better, but I just hope that thousands of lives are endangered by the reckless actions of a president who I am certain has visions of the last crusade in his eyes. Well, there is still, hope, no matter how faint. Getting to tired to care though. Current Mood: listless Current Music: REM - It's the end of the world as we know it (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 2nd, 2004
3:05 pm	This is it Today is the day, we see if intellegence and hope will stand a chance against ignorance and hate. Today we see if the next seven years will be filled with war and zealotry, or relative peace. Current Mood: pensive Current Music: Oh Jethro (Comment on this)
Friday, October 22nd, 2004
10:46 pm	Man's Drinkin' Alright boys and girls. I got a question, which I don't expect to get many comments on this one, but it's worth a shot. So three easy questions. What is generally favorite Whiskey? What is your favorite Whiskey for mixing? (Ex: Rye and Coke) What is your favorite Whiskey to do in shots? And to be safe, list another Whiskey you personally enjoy not listed in the other three. So far for me, my General Whiskey is Jack Daniels. For mixing though, nothing beats Canadian Club, goes in nice and smooth. For Shooting however, this one used to go to Jack Daniels, but I think Wild Turkey (the choice Whiskey of Frank Castle and Vash the Stampede ;) ) has taken it out. Lastly, another Whiskey I personally enjoy is Crown Royal. Any whiskey is game! Malt, Grain, Blended, Straight, Bourbon, Tennessee, Scotch, Irish, Single Cask, Canadian, Japanese (I honestly didn't think it existed until today). COMMENT ME!! Current Mood: curious Current Music: Marilyn Manson - Personal Jesus (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 19th, 2004
10:25 pm	#$%&@!! *&%^$!!! #$)&!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why hasn't Dave at my work been fired yet. This is easily the fourth time in a row he has called off his shift at the last minute (he's called off at the last minute more times then I can count). I swear, if this happens one more time, I'M gonna call off before his shift. Leave no one in the department, see what happens then! Current Mood: infuriated Current Music: Train - Drops of Jupiter (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, October 18th, 2004
10:44 pm	Just chillin' I wonder why it is updating my livej ournal never seems to happen till at least around 10-11ish? Hmm... Anyways, I'm thinking I'm going to take a mini vacation to Toronto. Take a couple days off, go to the ROM, stop and smell the roses thing. I mean, working two jobs is really starting to take it's toll. Oh well, I guess I'd better get used to it. Anyways, if anyone I know is interested comment this post or get in touch. Failing anything, I get to learn Toronto's geography a bit better :D. Anyways, I just realized that I use "Anyways" to start a lot of journal paragraphs. Heh, I probably should stop. I picked up the doom collectors edition. The perfect set of games for my crappy 300mhz laptop. Doom, Doom 2 and Final Doom. Sadly no Doom 3, I heard it sucks anyways. Work wasn't so bad today, I mean I left them a damn good department yesterday, and I left them a perfect one today. Unfortunately I'm working with Dave Gadson tomorrow, and knowing my luck he's gonna pull another no show. If he does show up, he'd better bust his butt, because I'm not dealing with anymore of his BS. Anyways, I think I'm going to play some UT2004, then hit the sack. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Kid Rock/Sheryl Crow - Picture (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 14th, 2004
10:28 pm	Before you say anything I'm not actually high, I just feel high and...yeah. My brain feels like mush...too tired to sleep, but not awake enough to think. Just...lost and messed...like I'm in a haze. Oh well, I think I'll type out some lyrics. Hope we roleplay tomorrow. I'm not the one whose so far away, when I feel the snake bite enter my veins. Never did I want to be here again, and I don't remember why I came. Current Mood: high Current Music: Godsmack - Voodoo (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 10th, 2004
8:45 pm	Thanksgiving Good, Work Bad Man, I am really starting to hate my manager. Not only is he a complete prick 95% of the time, but he books himself off Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Tuesday (Monday being Thanksgiving and thus a holiday). Plus he has me working more hours this week then him. Plus he's been scheduling me closing shifts followed by opening shifts all of last week and this week. I think I'm going to have a talk with him on Tuesday. This is Bullshit. Anyways, I had to work 12-6:30 today and came home to a thanksgiving dinner. Things actually went pretty smooth, which is a welcome change from the crap I've been dealing with lately. Anyways, no one seems to be role-playing in the old #vampyreinn, even though it is slowly trying to come back from the grave. :). so I'll probably game for a bit then hit the sack around midnight. Laterz my peeps. Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: Beatles - Hey Jude (1 Comment |Comment on this)